Can I start by saying how amazing this site is, I have read so many posts on here before finally finding a voice for myself, I think you're all so amazing for sharing your experiences to try and help others.
I had my first abnormal smear in June 2014, which showed significant cell changes and high risk hpv. This was followed by colposcopy which showed CIN2. I had this removed with a loop treatment. I then had anot her smear 6 months later and another colposcopy which showed some minor abnormalities and high risk hpv again. However I was told that no further treatment was needed at that time and I should go for another smear in a year's time. Nearly 8 months have now gone by but I am almost out of my mind with worry that these abnormal cells (which are definitely there!) are changing and spreading and that a year is too long to leave it. I'm a single mum to a 5 and 9 year old and have totally convinced myself that when I eventually do go back, I will have developed full on cancer that could have spread. Most of all I am terrified of being taken away from my two children as I am literally all they have got. I have been to see my GP to discuss my concerns and although she said that she understood my anxiety, she trusts the system and I should just wait it out. But it's literally driving me insane! I can't sleep and I have developed achy, period like pain for the last few weeks (I have the depero Vera injection and don't have any periods at all). I think about this 100% of the time and it's really affecting all aspects of my life. I try so hard to think positively but I'm just so scared that the hpv will cause the changes to happen faster than anyone expects and if I wait another 4 months I will seriously regret it. If anyone has any thoughts on this I would really appreciate knowing what you think. Thank you x