Hi all I'm new to this site.
I really need some advise. I had my first smear done August 2011 and it came back mild changes and Hpv.
I had to make and appointment for a colposcopy which was only about a week later.....right this is where I get embarrassed...but I had the colposcopy and the Dr said he wanted to take a biopsy and I literally had a panick attack. It was horrible. In the ended I couldn't let him take a biopsy this is only because I am a big jessy and am scared of most things so please don't let me put you off.
so I opted for treatment (even though the biopsy would have determined whether I needed it) i had full loop treatment and a results letter stating the abnormal cells were not cancerous. I had to return to the hospital after 6 months for a check up. Well when I did it didn't go well :( I found it impossible to tolerate the speculum examination. I have developed severe secondary vaginisum from this whole experience, where my muscles literally clamp down so hard the exam is impossible. The Dr was happy to Discharge me back to my gp for a more relaxed smear...but again this didn't happen absolutely nobody was listening to me I need help but more importantly I need to be checked up.
about a month ago I had very minimul spotting and I panicked I went to the Drs the next day and broke down. He wrote to the gyny dep at my hospital and suggested I had the smear done under general. Ths seems extreme I know but it's the only way at the moment. This is booked for the 6th March. I'm petrified I have left it too late and they are going to find something. :(
i know how important It was to be checked up after my treatment but it was physically impossible. Even at my 6 month check up after treatment when they couldn't examine me one nurse said what about under general...the other said no they won't do that. So for the last 12 months i have thought that wasn't an option but only to find it was?? I'm gutted I'm so anxious as I have had some spotting and aches and pains downstairs I feel like something is going on.
thank you for reading. Xxxx