I am your hope story! I had my first abnormal smear in 2005 (first ever smear at 25). I had abnormal smears the entire time, 2 rounds of Lletz and I thought it was never going to end! Until last year, I had my first smear and first no evidence of HPV. So that was a LOT of years! I was sent back to 3 yearly recall. I actually have my first (one year later) private smear and HPV test a week on Monday, as I just couldn't imagine going 3 years without being checked.
I absolutely know how you are feeling and it completely sucks! However, please PLEASE feel confident in the fact you are being checked and closely monitored. One thing I did (whether or not this is the reason why) but I read that folic acid and something called L-Lysene has been proven in trials abroad in clearing abnormalities. I gave both of those things ago, then ended up with clear. It could be coincidence but I didn't see the harm and they're both natural. Plus, the L-Lysene works on coldsores, double bonus! I also ate loads of tomatoes. Everything I read I tried! Oh and green tea too!
I'll be thinking of you, as I know it feels never ending and as soon as you're through one lot of results, the next check-up is here! It takes over your life, planning when you can't go on holiday, when you can't do this or that. Good luck Libby, it can be done!
Let us know how you get on.