Hi, I feel a bit ridiculous writing this, but I'm just looking for a bit of reassurance.
I'm 39, have had regular smears, they're always an it uncomfortable, I'm an assault survivor, so I think I tense up when I'm having them, but also, my cervix is 'high' apparently.
I went today for my smear, and it was just awful.
it took 30 minutes.
the first nurse tried for 10 minutes, twisting and turning the plastic speculum, it was really painful. She stopped and took it out, and said 'There's too much discharge, I can't see'
so went to get another nurse, when she came, she looked at the kit, and asked for another one saying 'that's too bloody I can't use it'
and she tried. For 10 minutes. I cried, and had to stop her.
it took 5 mins for me to calm down, they were telling me to sit on my fists, sit on a pillow, tilt my pelvis up, then down, opening the speculum more and more.
I silently cried, when eventually they both go 'ah there it is' and then a burning pain as she did the smear, and THEN they have this big discussion that felt forever, while I'm laid there with the speculum still wide in there 'shall we take swabs? Yeah let's do that' and then she had to go to another room to ge the swabs...and finally we're done.
theu both apologised for how long it took, even said 'you might want to lay there a bit, you'll probably be light headed after all that'
i eventually had to ask, 'was it the high cervix or the discharge? And are you worried about that becuase i DO get thrush, but I didn't think I had it now'
and they just looked at each other and said 'we don't know, you'll just have to call for the results in a week'
so now I'm really worried.
should there have been that much bleeding?
I struggled to walk home, I cried all the way.
and this discharge? Should I be worried About that now?
i sobbed in my husbands arms tonight.
I'm terrified that I'll get abnormal results and have to go through that all again!