Really need to get this off my chest.
Yesterday I had my latest 6 monthly tests post cone biopsy. As a side note the area around my hospital currently has huge road closures and crazy bus diversions, so I was 10 mins late (first time in over 20 appointments). I was given a terse lecture from a grumpy doctor (not my usual one) that I should have called to inform them. I did - 4 times and no answer! (Kind nurse said she would sort this out with the absent receptionist)
She then proceeded to do the smear (2 brushes - upper and lower). And it really hurt this time…lots of strong cramps and stabbing pains. I really got the sense I was being punished for being 10 mins late, that she was intentionally rough. Then she did the colposcopy with the solutions, more vigorous and painful than normal. I’ve been getting bleeding and that area looked abnormal, so she took a biopsy. Basically stabbed me with the implement (I think by “accident”). My whole body jumped off the bed. Again it has never hurt that much in the past. Finally took the actual biopsy and I was done. The nurse (not the Dr) kept apologising and came over to hold my arm to try and sooth me. Kindness makes me want to burst into tears in these situations.
I made a point of saying it has never been this painful before...ever.... and the doctor half-heartedly apologised while smirking at me.
My last results were borderline so it’s pretty depressing to think the abnormality is lingering/recurring/getting worse…when all I am hoping for is an all clear. Not helped by a complete lack of care and attention. I think I'll ask that I'm not seen by that Dr again. Normally I have had nothing but kind and supportive medical staff. There’s always one to ruin though I guess. :(
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