I know you're not supposed to swear on here, but my love it's SH*T! The worst thing you'll ever be told. Be proud that you're over that milestone. milestones for me really help. So think about it in little chunks.
OK, so I had a colposcopy, which was diagnosed with cancer. Had leetz, then a cone biopsy and lymph nodes extracted. I'm early stages, 1b. My MRI isn't clear, I'm still waiting for CT results on my chest. But listen, I've been through what you are, I've decided it won't consume me, I'm enjoying a weekend with my hubby. I've learned to just enjoy the good things.
it was my hubby who told me to respond. I had (selfishly) relied on Jo's, but never posted. This is a fantastic place to meet others who understand how you feel. It's crap, but it does get better. There's lots of waiting, you need to learn to lean on those close to you, you will need it.
Please post again when you get your results.
Take care xxxxxxx