im not quite in the same situation as it was at my colposcopy that I was diagnosed on sight alone! However prior to that I had three months of being messed around by the doctors in relation to my symptoms. One doctor examined or allegedly examined my cervix and said it looked fine, on that basis she refused to do a smear and also lied to me about chabging my gyny referral to urgent. She then missed a phone appointment with me (I'm so grateful she did now) and only when I saw another lady did she immediately take one look and get me a two week urgent referall for suspected cancer.
Also whilst waiting for my appointment at the hospital the first gp called and apologised and at the end of the call I quote said sorry for being rubbish!
sorry rant over! I know it's not the same but I imagine like me ur finding it difficult to put ur trust in people after what u went through. I was totally the same and dabbled with the idea Of medical negligence etc. However I'm now just trying to focus my energy on getting on with things. Albeit a strongly worded letter is going to the doctor!!
im in a similar boat to yourself in terms of the process, I've had my scans and am waiting for my stage. I go from calm to a mess in the blink of an eye. I'm just trying to hope it's not spread and think that whatever it is I'll fight it and win however some days it's much more easier to think that way than others.
my heart goes out to u about the mix up u have faced and I know I'm the same wondering what has happened in my body whilst the gp was messing around, however I keep trying to tell myself that it's slow growing and that I feel ok and hopefully things will be fine.
ive managed to put my trust in the consultant however equally I call and chase everything up now, which has benefited me greatly as a few referrals didn't go through as urgent initially. It doesn't help much but being persisant helped me claw back a bit of time and made me feel more pro active and in control.
its an awful time ur going through. This site has helped me as everyone is really nice and supportive. Also I finding sharing my experience and offering support to others in turn helps me feel better.
i hope you get your results quickly, at the moment I'm torn between wanting them and wanting to hide under a big rock.