Hope you are all well.
I find my way back home to Jo’s in a time of feeling blue and hope you can help.
I was diagnosed with 1b1 CC in March 2011. My tumour was 7mm but only 2mm deep so i just just crossed the boarder from 1a2 to 1b1.
I had a knife cone biopsy and a bilateral lymphendecomy …The biospy had huge margins (over 1cm both sides) and my nodes were clear. I was very very lucky.
I was super lucky that i went on to have two children after surgery, falling pregnant in the same year (2011).
All has been fine, two babies, years of breastfeeding, clear colposcopies, smears and never any HPV found again.
Last year i stopped breastfeeding my youngest who was 2 at the time and my periods returned. They were all over the place!!! Understandably.
My GP referred me back to my consultant gynaecologist, who had just discharged me!! He wasnt worried at all and reminded me i had had a clear smear in Feb 2016.
Fast forward to now, i have had another apt to see my consultant, again he isn’t worried my cycles are very predictable, every 24 days with some mid cycle ovulation bleeding.
I am now due another smear back at my gps office for the first time since i was diagnosed and i am TERRIFIED.
I know my gynae isn’t worried, he is happy to discharge me but my loopy periods have me worried. I am so concerned that something is wrong that i am seriously considering paying for a private colposcopy.
I feel as though being discharged is both a blessing and curse.
I have spent all day googling flipping recurrence rates for my stage and could just sob.
Lots of love xx