I'm new here. Have just spent the last hour crying at the bottom of my stairs after recieving a letter from the hospital. To fill you in on some history, I had my first smear in July 2014 and a colposcopy, which saw mild changes and so had my 6 month follow up in January. At my first colposcopy the nurse biopsied a few areas, but they came back clear and only showing high-risk HPV. At the second, the nurse (a different one) said that the area that had been flagged up from before now looked to be clear, and that it all looked fine, no need for a biopsy. However, the letter I just received states that the smear shows 'high grade changes' and I am to be discussed in the meeting at the end of the month. I'm devastated as I really hoped that things would be normal, but am now terrified about what this could mean, and if I have cancer. I know that sounds silly but I have had intense pelvic and tailbone pain and pain during sex for months, and was diagnosed with endometriosis in October after a laproscopy. I have recurring thrush and cystitis and generally feel terrible all the time, but am now concerned that I could in fact have had cancer the whole time, but in an area they haven't looked at yet.
Any words of advice or from anyone in a similar situation would be lovely. I am sitting in floods of tears and so worried!
Thank you for reading this epic spiel!