I'm new here, joined today. I guess I just needed to feel like I'm "doing" something by posting here as the waiting is agonising.
I started having pain deep inside my cervix and also back pain in around Nov 19. I'd had an IUD fitted back in Jan 19 and had spotted continually and bled after sex ever since so I assumed it was related to that. I did have an appointment with the nurse who confirmed the IUD was in the right place and so I thought nothing more of it until the discharge started in Jan.
The discharge was watery - it would gush every time I stood up, pouring over the sides of sanitary towels and soaking my underwear as though I'd wet myself. I went to see the doctor in Jan 20. It was a new doctor I'd never seen before. He did a quick internal exam, said he couldn't see anything obvious, and he referred me to the gynaecology clinic. The wait was three months!!
During this time, I started bleeding more and the blood was putrid. The discharge also started smelling bad. I called the GP again who said he couldn't see me physically because of the Covid situation but he prescribed me two lots of antibiotics - which did reduce the discharge, I think, although not the pain - and told me to hang on until my gynaecology appointment which was in two weeks.
The day before my appointment they called to say that the entire gynaecology clinic was cancelled and I'd have to wait for lockdown to be over, when I'd be sent another appointment. I called my GP in tears. I spoke to a lovely lady GP who arranged for a transvaginal ultrasound for me, "to rule out cancers". The ultrasound didn't show any obvious problems with my ovaries or uterus. I was so relieved.
A few days after I'd finished my antibiotics, the foul discharge returned, only now it has clumps of brown debris in it. When I discussed with my GP, she asked me to come into the surgery so, she could do an examination and take swabs.
Upon viewing the cervix, before even taking the swabs, she was grave. She said all the bleeding and discharge was coming from the cervix, not the uterus, and it looked "very abnormal". She arranged an emergency appointment at the hospital for me. When the letter came through, I saw that the appointment is with "Gynacalogical Oncology". A bit of a shock.
The appointment is tomorrow. I'm scared. I don't know what to think. I last had a smear test 3yrs ago - I've never missed an appointment. I clearly have all the symptoms of cervical cancer according to Dr Google - the pain, foul watery discharge, bleeding after sex - but for it to be causing such pain then does that mean it's very advanced? I don't even know what tests they'll be doing at the appointment tomorrow, when will I find out what's going on?
I'm so scared that they will discover cancer that is really advanced. I'm scared I might not get to see my young daughters grow up. I can't talk to my partner because it worries him - he tells me to stop Googling things and to stop thinking of worst case scenarios. I don't mind if they want to do a hysterectomy I just need to survive this for them, the people I love. I'm 38.
Anyway, thanks for listening.