i had had my first smear in May 2013. Was positive for HPV and I had mild changes - I went for a colposcopy and all was normal, no biopsies taken. Unbeknown to be I was actually pregnant at this time with twins. I lost them in December 2013 and then fell pregnant again very quickly and had my daughter in October 2014. I waited the normal 12 weeks and booked for a smear and also went onto the mini pill. I had to push back my smear a few weeks due to break through bleeding as I'd fprgotten the odd pill. Anyway I went for my smear 3 weeks ago (I live in Germany as my husband is in the army so smear results take longer than being in uk!) got my results back yesterday with a severe result. Doctor never mentioned anything about HPV This time. However I have my colposcopy in a German hospital (which is the norm here) at 12:30 today and I am terrified.
From loosing the twins I am so incredibly anxious all the time and have abit of PND. I just sat and googled last night and absolutely terrified myself. I am more concerned that if it's not a very very bad result - about the pain, pain from the biopsies and potential treatment. last time when I only had the vinegar and the iodine it stung so I'm dreading the other stuff. Anyone have any positive or reassuring things for me? I've done nothing but cry for 24 hours. I'm so scared and I have only my husband here, no family or anything. I feel so alone :(