Does anyone have negative feelings towards their flue? I had stage 2b squamous cell cancer diagnosed last Feb, 25 x 45gy radiotherapy, 5 x chemo, cisplatin, (which it turns out I was allergic to) and 3 x 20minute brachytherapy sessions over 3 days. All clear given end of july last year and have tried to resume a normal sex life allbeit slowly but I can't get over the bad feelings towards the downstairs that has caused the grief in the first place. I'm not a talker and to everyone else I'm the same old Donna that makes inappropriate jokes about stuff of that nature but theres a whiny voice that only I hear, usually at 3 in the morning whilst I'm worrying about stuff thats way beyond my control anyway. Hubby has been very good and not pushed his luck, taken me away for the weekend, bought me saucy gifts etc but I'm still struggling with it. Will it go away? is it normal? or do I need to talk to someone? sorry for the long post.