Just returned from seeing gynae consultant, the LLETZ indicted that the sides of the cancer are not easily defined so Dr recommends a radical hysterectomy and possibly radiotherapy. As the MRI didn't show a tumour I had got my hopes up that I might get away with less treatment, and now feel flat again. Plus I feel that I got everyone else's hopes up too - friends and family - and need to tell them. I know it is a daft thing to worry about but still.
I am really fond of my lymph nodes! Possible risks of rad hysterectomy are rather scary.
I realise I am back in that fear/shock feeling, will go and read my thread again about coping. I needed to have a little moan and am so glad I can do it here. I know time will help too. I was so enjoying feeling hopeful!!!! Grrrr.