i had my colposcopy appt last week
now i read everywhere how the colposcopy will go down
they do the colposcop, They may confirm what CIN you are, whether the smear test was right or not going by what they see and they may offer you: see and treat with LLETZ, biopsy, come back for LLETZ (talk about LLETZ under GA rather than LA) or keep and eye on it and come back
this is what I have read everywhere. It was good that you could get a choice, that they will talk to you about what they see, that you are in control in some way and youre not too overwhelmed
my appt didn't go down this this. None of this happened. I went in, terrified about how it would feel but terrified that I would need treatment but I told myself its ok if I'm not ok with treatment whilst theyre down there I will just say no can i come back, can I have it under GA... whatever.
soon I sat down to talk to him he was talking about LLETZ and I was confused. I figured he was probably just saying about it in case I needed treatment but then he wanted me to sign form of consent and I said "wait you're doing treatment" and he replied yes
why? Why was he giving me LLETZ before even seeing me? At the time I went along with it. I didn't think I could decline. I didn't think I could question it. He wasbt scary or intimidating but what was going on was.
no talk about my options. No talk about ga. he didn't even give me an opportunity to decline it, not till I was already in stirrups and he was down there and I had mentioned I was going back to work straight after and then he said "would you prefer we just do a biopsy?" I didn't think that was an option! I was already in such a vulnerable state I just said no carry on when really I just wanted to get up and start the whole thing again because none of this made sense
the procedure was fine. I won't be worrying about either colposcopy or LLETZ like I was
but I still felt so confused. After the lletz I was woozy from the la and he said do you have any questions- yes lots!! But I couldn't think of them because I was in shock and coming down for local anaestheti!
He didn't confirm cin, he didn't tell me how much he took away
sorry this is long but anyone else had anything similar???
ive felt so emotional because I felt I didn't get options. I didn't get to talk through options, that I couldn't decline, that I could sit and think about it, that it was rushed
my GP thinks certain protocols weren't met here and I should write a letter
its odd, I never thought of this or that it would even be a problem but I felt so out of control and so overwhelmed by it all.