I haven't signed into the forum for a long while but regularly check back in. I am now 5 yrs clear and doing great.
I remember how frightening that initial diagnosis can be and wrote down what it felt like for me. I have recently had the story re- printed on Amazon. It was originally serialised back in 2010 and had a link on here but may no longer be available. If any newbies want to read it, to see there can be light at the end of the tunnel then please take a gander at Amazon and search for Helen Midgley, the story is called 'Walking with the Beast'.