Hi, just feel like sharing my story. Friends around me doesnt really undrstand what I am going through and I am finding it pointless to talk to them about that. Only womans like us who having same experience can really understand each other thats why I turn to this web site. I am having my appoitment coming tommorow for Loop cone biopsy under LA. I did not have biopsy taken before, just colposcopy which show - small area consistent with CIN2. Hope thats going to be it and they wont find anything worse after my treatment.
II was scared like hell when I first received my smear test result stating HIGH GRADE DYSKARYOSIS. That time I didnt know it was moderate changes (which obvieusly calm me down a lot).I think the way of giving results should be more specified, I went through unnecessery trauma waiting until colposcopy appoitment to be informed it s not cancer but small area with moderate changes.
I understand every case is diffrent but I know as well in many cases lot of womans are put through unnecesarry stress.And we know how bad impact it has on our general health.Since my smear results I started to suffer panic attacks. My smear had been done 2 months ago, I refused my treatment at first becouse of lack of information. I wasnt enough convinced that I need it. Well, to be honest I am still not 100% convinced. As I said I did not have biopsy done (on my request) so just wondering how they coud confirm its CIN2? What if its CIN1 which doesnt require treatment? Just wondering....
Anyway... I was so nervous before my colposcopy that I have almost vomited on nurse. After all I was so relieved and happy. It was so quick and absolutely painless.
But now - coming to my treatment (which is tommorow) I first panic a lot, cry a lot, imaging needle going into my cervix make me sick, imaging myself fainting and all that. So that was at first few weeks going through my mind. Now I am 24 hour away from my treatment and... I was expecting it to be culmination of my anxiety but instead I am feeling so relaxed and happy and actually cant wait to have it done !! Am I gone mad already ?? ;)) I think I kind of accept thae fact that I must have it done. Reading this forum helps me a lot as well.
I want to give advice to everyone - calm down and relax. You cant tell me - "Its easy for you to say, u dont understand what we going throug" as I understan very well, I am one of you girls. Keep your chin up.All will be fine ! Be happy and feel blessed that we were given opportunity to find out and to get treatments early.
I dont know what my results will show but I am staying very positive and I will keep you updated . Hugs and kisses to you all !!!