Hi All
Well i joined this site a few weeks ago, after receiving an alarming phone call from my gp saying they had found something of concern on my smear. I wasnt given any other information other than i was being referred to the hsopital and i musnt ignore the letter.
What did I do, i Hit google and all i read was CC this and CC that, i lay in bed planning my funeral etc. Anyway the day after the hospital rung and said that tehy had a cancellation , i asked what i was bein referred for and they said a colposcopy..finally i knew what i was going for, i wasnt necessarily dying, they were ging to use a camera to get a better look. My appointment was made for the following day , i was a wreck. I arrived at the hospita; best friend in tow, only to be told they were carrying out the LLTEZ treatment there and then. I was sobbing uncontrollaby throughout the nurse and the doctor were so lovely and really tried to put my mind at rest, ..they failed. asked the question im sure they hear day in and day out .." Have i got cancer " the dctor simply shook his head and said no CIN3" the nurse explained that this whatthey called severe dyskarosis, and was pre cancerous however if there was nay cancer in the sample it would be microscopic and it would have all been removed.
They asked if i would prefer to get my results back in person, i said yes, so thats where im headed now, and now if im honest im worried sick, i dont see anyone else that has been asked togo back , that has had good news, so im currently sat at my desk at work sobbing. The last two weeks have been so emptioanlly draining, im exhausted. I got married in december and we had just started to discuss about having a family and now i cant help but think its all going to be snatched away, I lost my dad last year so the last 12 months have been horrendois, after getting married in december i thought that things were finally starting to get better , and feel now like i was totally wrong.
My husband is a bit overwhelmed by it all if im honest and keeps saying as most people do ..dont worry im sure it wil be ok , however the cold hard truth is , that it can quite easily not ending up being ok. Sorry for sitting here having a little pity party, i just needed to have a bit of a rant and feel sorry for myself , and ask the question , relastically should i be worried that i jave been invited back to get my results???
K xxxx
