It occured to me, sitting here in the waiting room for my Lletz LA that i would probably feel less genuinely terrified if i could know some exact accounts of other peoples experiences. Having read about the procedure and some people's comments on here i am dreading the adrenaline the most and also scared of the result as i have had some seriously dodgy things going on recently and had already had my 3 biopsies upgrade to cin 2/3 when they originally said cin 1.
So here goes, a real time account as best i can for one example of a LA lletz experience.
Just been called in and they showed me some scribbles on a cervix map to show how much they are taking. "Just this bit here" they say but to me it looks like at least half of the surface area! Argh! Of course to the professionals (bearing in mind that i am an NHS professional myself) half the surface area is just a tiny bit compared to the full width and depth of a cervix. Breathe Magick, just breathe.
Off with the trousers and undies now, i had the foresight to wear a looooong top so no need to wrap a sheet around me at least. Makes much easier to walk.
Up into the chair and, being a rather big-bottomed lass, the blasted seat section of the chair slides out when they ask me to lean back. Cue lots of bum-shuffling backwards.
The assistants are lovely and very genuine, no hairdresser talk and of course when ever they ask if im ok i say "im fine!" Even though my palms are sweaty and I'm shaking like a leaf.
The chair has neen tilted right back now and if i wasnt so worried i could easily go to sleep.
I say that im worried about the adrenaline that ive read about as i dont like how it makes me feel, at which point i am told that ive no need to worry as they dont use adrenaline with their local anaesthetic. Phew, wish i called to discuss my worries now as it would have really eased my mind.
"This is the hardest bit for you now" i am told as they are going to inject 3 areas with local, wait a moment then inject a few more a bit deeper when the first lot has kicked in. "Sharp scratch" they say as an assistant holds my hand. Sharp scratch, hurts, no lie but only for a second. Or 3 seconds as i have 3 injections. Then down to business.
"You will hear a sound like a hoover" as they hold a long clear tube. No idea what they are going to do with that but dont want to ask. Expecting to feel nothing thanks to LA it took me by surprise that it hurt. Not hurt pain hurt but more like pushing on a bruise lind of hurt. Over by the count of 5 though and its on to the cauterisation.
No funky smell like i have heard but it did feel warm, this was the longest part but still surprisingly quick.
Job done, bobs your uncle, fannys your aunt and its "how do you feel?"
Dizzy for me, but this of course could be down to how worked up about it i was. They laid me back down in the chair and i could happily drift off. Very tired all of a sudden.
In recovery now having some water and i have been given strict instructions to stay in the hospital and go for a coffee or something for at least half an hour.
Sat in costa now with a yummy iced latte and i Dont know if its the stress of worrying about this for so long (got my appointment letter 6 weeks ago) but i just cant drink it. Times nearly up though so off to the loo to check the situation, (there was an issue with my biopsies as they just wouldnt stop bleeding) and if all is good then off home, feeling equally starving and like i couldnt eat a thing.
All in all, i dont know why i worried so much, all over in half an hour amd hopefully all the bad is gone. Just waiting on a letter now.