First of all I want to say that what you’re feeling is totally relatable. I hate going to the dentist, I hate the opticians (I have high myopia), I’m not a fan of other medical appointments either but until recently have mostly been spared going in for anything major.
But I force myself to go out of necessity, and it was the same for LLETZ. Having said that I was in absolute bits. I have said a few times on this forum that I don’t think it’s acknowledged enough how emotional having to go through this level of screening and treatment can be - it’s almost treated as so routine that it’s no big deal.
Want to add a prefix here that: EVERY woman is different. My experience is by no means universal.
However, just to give you an idea. I had local aesthetic for LLETZ and no other pain relief. I 100% felt the first injection (I think I had two, it was a small area apparently) and the consultant reacted to my silent grimace with “ooh you did well there” - which led me to believe that it might be more painful for other women. For me, there was what I’d call slight pain and it was the sort of uncomfortable feeling where you can tolerate it but just want it to go away.
I didn’t feel any pain during the treatment itself but I felt SOMETHING and again, I would say I was tolerating it and not having a fun time. I was aware that something was being cut off me even though it didn’t hurt, if that makes sense? There was also the general pressure of having a series of stuff inside your vagina. All I’ll say is, if they offer you to go for a wee beforehand - take them up on the offer!
Essentially, you know your body and pain threshold. You also know what you’re comfortable with. If you would prefer GA or gas and air then don’t let anyone dissuade you. I’ve also seen advice that you can take painkillers about an hour beforehand. Ask questions and if you feel like nobody is being clear enough, keep asking. I had hundreds of questions relating to recovery to the point where I felt like the nurse maybe (not in a nasty way) wanted me to just go home already but I didn’t care. I wanted to know.
All the best for your treatment next week x