Hello The Cottage, I have found this forum really reassuring, hope you are too x
I'd never had an abnormal smear before, it was quite a shock and I was well weepy for a few days. I banned myself from reading anything other than info on this site! I went to the hospital yesterday afternoon and had a LLETZ treatment for expected CGIN (don't know what level until the letter comes but from reading on here it is similar to CIN 2 or 3 it's just mine are the glandular cells misbehaving).
It was really fine, easier said than done I know, but try not to worry about it. The consultant and nurses will tell you exactly what to expect and just try to relax. I can honestly say I felt very little and certainly no pain during or since. I've never found a ceiling so fascinating before! The nurse was chatting too which I found helpful. The local anaesthetic was slightly stingy but barely. That has a bit of adrenaline in it too which they said makes you feel a bit trembly and it did but since I was expecting that it was fine, not even unpleasant just a little odd, short-lasting sensation. Then you can't feel anything anyway. It was all very quick. I just felt relieved afterwards and hopefully that will be all that is required.
I did take a friend who drove, though I'd have been fine if I'd had to drive but I wasn't sure how I'd feel after. I've been to work today and been fine too. Barely visible discharge on the pad. No bleeding. Ever so slight a twinge every now and then but I'm sure that's because I'm being acutely aware of anything! (I'm probably imagining it!)
The only thing I am really is tired, as I haven't slept well for a week for worrying! I'm due on at the weekend so I'm not sure how that will be.....but I guess I will be finding out!
Wearing a skirt is a good idea too as that can stay on, somehow made it feel more normal. I didn't have to put a gown on. I just took my tights and underwear off and had the ridiculous thought that I was glad I'd shaved my legs!! Like that matters! I hope it goes well tomorrow x