Nice to "meet" you, if for unhappy reasons. I am right where you are... two kids, recently diagnosed, waiting for my second biopsy and looking for support. It's such a horrible place to be, waiting. I spent about two solid weeks lookng up every awful, heartbreaking story on the internet until I realized I needed to stop. Please make sure you give yourself that grace. It's so hard to feel like you can't be vulnerable right now - I haven't told my children yet because I wanted to wait until after my biopsy to see if I need just the hysterectomy or if I need further treatment - that is going to definitely shape how I explain this to them (they are 12 and 10 so they are able to comprehend things more, but still at the point where the word "cancer" is too scary).
How are you doing TODAY? At this exact moment in time? Have you done something nice for yourself? Have you allowed yourself to sleep in? Have you started reading a terribly trashy escapist book or watched a crappy movie, just for the sake of distracting yourself? Have you made the "at least I'll lose two pounds" joke yet?
I'm trying to take it day by day at this point - looking forward to a romantic weekend getaway with my boyfriend, before coming back the next week to my LEEP. But this week is about making sure my nails look good, my bags are packed, and I'm relaxed enough to enjoy the calm before the storm. What are you doing today?