Hi ladies hope you are all doing well. I have seen my consultant this month he said everything's going fine but I will have to wait till January for an MRI and the results from that will be another 2 weeks after that so as you may all imagine I am going stir crazy thinking and worrying constantly! The good thing is Christmas is here and having four beautiful adorable spoilt children it takes my mind off it a lot. (Did you note the sarcasm) they are good really! But anyway things are looking up with the ex husband, we have decided to move in together so he can help me with the children. He is a good man and it takes a lot of pressure off me having to do everything.
since radio finished I have not had any pain, I've had the odd few water infections but nothing serious I'm hoping these are good signs.
I also understand this May upset a few people as it has with my family but I have excepted what's happening to me and know my diagnosis isn't good, I know we all talk about always keep positive but what about not living in denial? I know what I have and at what stage and I've accepted it is what it is! I went to the funeral of a very dear friend this week who had a very rare form of cancer (not cervical) only 52 and I believe if it's going to take you then you have no say or choice over it! I'm not being negative and I don't mean to scare aby one of you but as we say we are all different on how we cope with things and I believe me facing my demons is the way I have learnt to cope with it! Don't get me wrong I'm not giving up the fight I've got my babies to think about