I have been diagnosed with adenocarcinoma of the cervix. I have been told it's a fairly rare form of cancer.
The oncologist I saw told me that based on the size of the tumor, the cancer has been there for about 2 years and I was just diagnosed about two weeks ago.
I have been a very different person for about 2 years time now. The people closest to me had been telling me that I have been very different. I am shorter with people than ever before. They were always asking me 'what's wrong with you? why are you being this way? what's going on with you?'
I seemed to be experiencing emotions at higher levels than what was normal for me. When I was angry - I was very angry. When I was jealous or frustrated - I was very jealous or frustrated. When I was sad (and this one hit me often - I was VERY sad.
Exercising seemed to have made things worse. I was really thinking I was losing my mind so I would purposely exercise for the endorphins to lighten my mood, but then I was in worse moods after the exercise! I just assumed I didn't exercise hard enough so I would go harder and harder and my reactions would be worse. After exercise I would become SO sad, that I would stay in the washroom and just cry for a good 30 minutes. I would become dark...It was the exact opposite of how I expected to feel.
Now that I know I have had cancer brewing down there for that timeframe...I am wondering if that would be what affected my moods and behavior so much???
Is that possible?? Sort of the same way you change when you have your period - something down there is brewing so it changes or affects your mental state - causing you pain as well etc...
I'm wondering if cancer brewing down there would have the same type of effect but worsened???
It seems reasonable to me that cancer growing inside of you would affect your moods and behavior - in particular in the area it's in but I have been accused of 'using' cancer to justify my behavior. I'm not really sure what to think.
The booklet I got from the Canadian Cancer Society says not exercise but doesn't say exactly why. Is it that it makes the cancer move around and then affects the brain that way??
Has anyone else out there had similar experiences or am I just going crazy here??
Thank you :)