I began a thread on the colposcopy forum this week, unfortunately yesterday I was initially diagnosed with CC 1a1. If you're interested in the background - and the HORRIFIC year I've been having besides this problem in my lady garden, please read this:
Now? I don't know how I feel. My husband is very supportive but I feel I cannot tell my best (only) friend what is going on. She lost her Mum to CC only a few months ago, and is getting married in October - I'm supposed to be her maid-of-honour. How can I tell her about this? How can I tell her that I might not be able to be in her wedding (if I have to have surgery/treatment)? I'm saying nothing to her until I've got a clearer idea of what's going on but I feel like such a liar going along with all the happy wedding planning.
This is horrible. I don't trust my consultant because at my colposcopy/lletz he said I definitely didn't have cancer, now he says 1a1 but it definitely won't be restaged to more than 1b. I'm currently under the care of a well known shit-hole of a hospital and our house move has been brought forward to next week. He wants me to complete all scans etc. at this hospital, even though I'll soon be 6 hours drive away.
I know 1a1 (initially) isn't much in the grand scheme of things - but I'm freaking out and terribly worried that the consultant is continually giving me 'best case' scenario because of my Aspergers and the complete wreck I was during the lletz.
Can anyone give me some perspective? Some personal experiences of 1a1 restaged to something worse?