i have been been reading through the forums since receiving the dreaded letter telling me that I have HPV and severe (moderate) dyskariosis. I went to the hospital on Thursday for colposcopy and Lletz procedure. Since then I have had minimal bleeding but instead have had a watery like discharge with a slight smell that reminds me of a sort of metally smell. It hasn’t got any worse so am hoping it isn’t an infection.
what I am struggling with more is my state of mind- I keep having flashbacks to the procedure- the needle for the anaesthetic in particular. I also fainted after the procedure out in the corridor which I keep re-living. I feel hugely emotional, very tearful and incredibly tired. I haven’t yet even been back to work as I am worried about how I will be when I am there.
i am a worrier by nature and this seems to have hit all the buttons for me in terms of anxiety and stress. At the moment I don’t feel like I can come out from under the cloud as I am so worried about the results and the thoughts of what they might say. There is a lot of material on the procedure out there but not much on what happens next...I feel very lonely at the moment even though I have good people round me I am finding it hard to explain how I feel.
sorry for the ramble just wanted to get this off my chest!
normal smears: from age 17-37
abnormal smear with +ve HPV and severe dyskariosis
colposcopy and lletz procedure completed awaiting results