This site has really helped me in the last 6 months, reading past posts and getting support when I was struggling.
I was a diagnosed from a routine smear and had a radical hysterectomy via keyhole surgery at the beginning of September. I decided not to have any more treatment as my surgeon had got clear margins on the tumour. I seemed to have recovered really well (a few menopause symptoms to live with) and was looking to go back to work 1 December. Cancer had turned my life upside down but I thought I could put it all behind me. I am still self catheterising and have had a couple of urinary infections. I developed persistent lower back pain and spasms in my back passage but thought this was my body settling down to a new normal. After antibiotics for a water infection and a few days on senna to rule out constipation I realised the lower back pain was persisting and my paracetamol intake was becoming more regular. I phoned MacMillan and they got me an appointment with my surgeon who requested an MRI which was last week. My results are on Tuesday. Work are still in the dark and processing my return application and only a few close people know my fears. I've somehow got through Christmas and new year but these last few weeks have been hell. If it's back this quickly I feel that i'm doomed. When I was diagnosed in July I was fit and well and able to face cancer with all guns blazing. Today I feel weary and weak, worn out from being in pain, I have another water infection so am on anti biotics again, I've got a sore throat and cold. I know it's the waiting that gets you down and i pray it's a simple explanation but my pain levels and paracetamol consumption indicate that something has to change.
Sorry to be a whinge bag. Cyber hugs to all you girls who are playing the waiting game too x