hey all, im being irriational and i realise that, My total abdominal hysterectomy appointment came through yesterday, (after consultant apologised for the delay i should of had it 3 weeks ago) for the 3rd of may
which also makes me wonder how bad its all grown...(had 3 cin3 severe dys. & hpv which is stubborn and keeps coming back)
Anyhow, now im paranoid im going to die....i know...melodramatic maybe, but im stressing they do something wrong or dont give me enough knock out stuff and i wake up during...or i feel it all...and then im wondering just how bad the pain will be after....(no stranger to discomfort just had chest tattooed)
i do think i must have done something pretty crappy in a previous life, i have had a pretty shocking life upto 2 yrs ago when i met my now husband and im really enjoying life, im finally happy and proper content, the kids are all happy (as much as teenagers are! lol) and now this...bloody change...cant help thinking someone upstairs is taking the piss with this bloody hand he has dealt me.
Sorry, feeling scared and just a little why me. i will snap out of it soon i hope and look on the positive side :/ but until then i will sit here being mardy.