Just recieved the results of my (28) smear test (first one under the new system - first in 2017 and no issues found) to be high risk HPV but no abnormal cells with a 1 year recall. I had the HPV vaccine when I was 12/13 so the news has come as a bit of a shock. I've been in my current relationship since January last year and feel like I should tell my partner but don't know how to, especially as we've not seen each other for months due to COVID. It is likely I caught it from one of my hookups (had a period where my depression spiralled into a lot of one night stands that I'm not proud of) which he knows of.
How do I tell him I'm high risk HPV? I don't want it to break us up as I'm terrified of going back into a depressive slide again and I know it's cliche, but the 'when you know, you know' feeling is strong between the both of us. His brother in law is a pharmasist so I'm debating getting him to help explain but it's also a private thing that I don't know if I want to share.
Sorry if this is just random rambling but I'm feeling sick to my stomach over this and stress over COVID and regular job impact (am a key worker with vulnerable parents who have thankfully both been vaccinated) is just screwing with my head and making rational thinking hard.
Any advice/support would be welcome.