I have just had my nurse on the phone after today's MDT meeting that has been held. Initially I was told that the course of treatment would be Radical Hysterecomy as it looked like my cancer was 4cm. After my MRI it is now bigger than originally thought, so they are not going to go down that route, but to give me chemo & radiotherapy combined over a 4 week period. Then 2 weeks later 2 sessions of internal radiotherapy.
My nurse is still very positive & says they are looking to completely get rid of the cancer.
This is all very well and good, but this has made me petrified that this is the beginning of the end. I just wanted a Hysterecomy to get rid of everything. Now I feel like the cancer is staying in my body. My nurse has said that it is natural to feel like this, but having the chemo/radio therapy is exactly the same as a hysterectomy, just another way of getting rid of it.
when I asked if the cancer shrinks but doesn't disappear, could I then have surgery, & she said tha isn't wht normally happens.
I feel devastated, scared, frightened.... And after feeling so very positive, this is horrendous. I'm worried I won't see my beautiful little boy grow up & do the things that me & my husband had planned....
Has anyone els been through what I am about to? Oh I've also got to have a PET CT scan next week.....
Thanks for reading x x