I just needed somewhere to unload really. My name is Jenny, I am 26 years old, no children (yet) and have just entered a new relationship (he is being surprisingly patient and understanding!).
My first ever smear I had came back with borderline changes, so I was asked to wait 6 months and repeat. Same result - borderline changes. So I was asked to wait ANOTHER 6 months and repeat. 3rd result still was borderline changes and positive HPV.
I was then asked to go for a colopscopy and biospy. The doc showed me my cervix on the screen and it looked white in blotches across the top half, and slightly going into the 'middle of the donut'. Not really sure what that means, but it didn't look all lovely like the bottom of it did! He said he was unsure if I would need treatment or not (which I thought sounded pretty positive at the time). He took the biopsy which I had a very stange reaction to... I went very hot, shaky and started passing out, and then became very emotional, which was odd because I went in feeling ok about the whole thing really. Anyway, I seemed to heal quickly from that, with the exception my next period being so bad that I actually passed out at work.
I then got the 'results' from this biopsy, which said there was no evidence of cancer, but that I needed to have a procedure and I might smell burning... no more information, no leaflets, nothing. This 'burning' appointment is tomorrow afternoon, and I was doing fine up until yesterday, and now I am terrified!!
Anyway, rant over. I just needed somewhere to unload everything... I feel like I am living someone else's life... And I want mine back.