I think I can safely say that the shock is starting to wear off. I'm definitely a lot more emotional since Saturday evening!
I took today off as sick leave and planned to give myself a bit of a pamper day to cheer myself up but instead I've sat here for about 3 hours now just reading through the old forum posts on here crying my eyes out, lol! I didn't notice the old forum posts until today, brilliant place for any other newbies to look - there's so much info in there.
Still doesn't feel real though. I don't feel like I'll ever be able to say "I have cancer"....that sentence is just too much!!!
I'm struggling to know how to act around people too - is this normal or am I just weird?! It's difficult to have a 'normal' conversation as my thoughts are just all focused on one thing....but that's not to say I want to talk about that all of the time either. I don't know what I want tbh, so I do feel sorry for anyone around me because how would they know what they should say if I don't even know! I know everyones hearts are in the right place, but unless you've been through it yourself you have no idea how someone feels. I sound so unsociable, lol! I'm not, well I wasn't before this anyway. It's just feeling like a minefield of being offended/offending people/getting upset/upsetting other people! x