Had smear test and the results are possible high grade squamous lesion

Hi all, i recently had a smear test and the results came back as possible high grade squamous lesion.... basically its been about four years since i had a smear test before that.

At the time of my smear i was 9 weeks post partum and bled for about four weeks after the test and I had lots of cervical pain in pregnancy I'm waiting to go for a colposcopy but im freaking out I'm really anxious about what the drs might tell me.

I've also had pains in the belly, has anyone had these symptoms and been ok?