Just joined today. It's 12 am and I can't sleep. Severe cramping. I am 23. I have a 2 year old son and I'm engaged to my love whom I've been with for 4 years. I haven't had a pap in over 3 years and what was suppose to be a check of my sore throat developed into me getting a pap done...
Pap came back with low grade cancer cells and high grade cancer cells. Had the Colposcopy today. They took two biopsies. One from 12:00 and 9:00 in my cervix(referencing what doctors said when they were doing the procedure) I asked if this was normal to take two and was told they've taken up to 5 before so don't worry.
But I'm worried. I thought pain during sex and bleeding was all due to having a baby and that my vagina just never healed properly. I looked up the symptoms and everything fits to the T. More discharge, random bleeding and cramping when I'm not on my period, pain during intercourse and bleeding post intercourse. Because of this I'm extremely worried.
Everyone is telling me I'm fine and that it's all good and God will heal me but honestly....i just want to break down and cry my eyes out. I want to be in bed all day...i was in bed most of the day today. I haven't cried...i feel like I don't get that privilege until I'm actually diagnosed with cervical cancer. And since I'm so young the chances are I most likely haven't developed it yet.
But I still have HPV that looks like it's not going away for the rest of my life so I've been told I need to start taking better care of my immune system.
I should get the results by friday. If they come back positive it's like almost a relief to know what's wrong. But if they come back negative then all my anxiety is for nothing you know? And ill feel stupid I guess. Of course I don't want cancer! I don't know how I feel...theres a lot of emotions that's for sure and I feel like no one understands me.