not sure if this is a question or rant or what.... but had to get it out!!
Im less then a week away from a check up with my team and I'm going absolutely insane with worry that it's back.
its like on one shoulder is this logical voice telling me it's ok, this voice seems to make up excuse for every niggle or pain(sore feet-you are tired or walked too much or slept funny:pain in legs-forgot to stretch or sat to long:funny feeling in tailbone-need to rest more)
then on the other shoulder is this horrible voice whom I try sooo hard to ignore but cannot diminish saying it's back. This is the voice that makes me question everything. The most recent question of why after almost a year am I feeling new symptoms. I felt better after 3 months then after a year!
I really am starting to freak out as things seem to be changing. The pain in my feet seems to be a bit better after changing my time I take my meds but pain in the back of my legs especially after going to the bathroom and sitting there only for a short time. My bowels seem to ok one day and not great the next. I still have the occasional blood in my stool but it hasn't gotten worse or better. I have this new pressure like feeling or tingling feeling on either side of my tailbone that seems worse when I lay down. Only good thing is I have not lost any weight. Aaahhhhh I hate this crap! I'm not sure if these issues have arised because I have an appointment or if this is all new issues from the chemorad or if these changes are a sign it's back......
Anyways, of you got this far then thank you for listening....
i hope you all are well.