Good Afternoon Ladies
I am new to this site and hoped i could gather some friendly advice as i am going out of my mind with worry. I have just tried to post on here earlier and it has posted an old message from someone else? just shows where my mind is.
Anyway the story is i went for my smear on the 8th December and nearly 2 weeks later had a call from my doctor after chasing results to hear i had high grade/ severe discaryosis and needed an urgent hospital appointment. Dr said it was precancerous as i asked out right was there cancer on my smear.
I then went to the appointment at coloscopy on the 22nd December and the nurse statred by disucssing my smear result saying that there was severe cell change and possible early cancer I of course started to panic. She said it might not be but she would tell me what she saw when she looked at me. So fast forward she said that she could see nothing that was giving her any mjor concern an would say if she she did. She said that there ws just a small area and would not have thouht the smear had come from me. She took 4 biopsys and a womb pipeline biospy I was told i as having these before she looked at me. Anyway she said if i need treatment i would have to come back after biopsy results in.
I know this sounds silly but i then spent the entire christmas worrying convinced i had CC it was awful waking up everyday with the same sinking feeling.
The nurse called me on the 30th December to advise i had CIN2 and loop treatment would need to take place my womb pipeline biopsy was normal :) I felt relieved as i understand cin 2 is precancerous and started to move on and get back to normal. They booked me in today but i was due my monthly so cancelled and rescheduled for next tuesday 20th typically my period has come yet probably due to the stress i am causing myself. I then had a call from the nurse asking why i had cancelled my appointment and that i need to go for this last biopsy as they still haven't rules out cc. I asked her bout the punch biopsy and she said there was no cancer. I said should i be worried here and she said not too worried but you need to come. This has just set me of freaking out again and googling myself cross eyed.
I decided to visit my DR today as emotionally I am up and down and as i feel i have up and down information. He said what they have found is treatable and the worst case after the loop i may be heading for a cone biopsy or have the cells frozen but he said it all depeds on how deep the cells go. He said it may not even come to this. I mentioned my wedding is in december and i am terrified i won't be able to start a family and he said he is a million miles away from worry about that. To be honest he was more worried about my state of mind.
When i mentioned the nurse at the hospital said there "might be " an early cancer (going off just my smear) he rolled his eyes and shook his head.
I wish i could just calm down and take it in my stride and i know there are so many brave ladies who have gone/going through worse than me so i feel i should stop being so silly. I guess it is juts the fear of the unknown x
