Your posts have made me furious - I wish I'd been with you in that doctor's surgery - he has absolutely no right to speak to you that way or make you feel the way he did. As Becky said, for many women it is hard enough to go and speak to a doctor about these kinds of intimate things, but to then be met by that kind of patronising and disrespectful treatment is appalling. I want to reassure you that none of that is your fault and you did not deserve any of it - that locum is clearly an idiot who needs to feel like he's the big important doctor and you're the stupid little patient and, it's completely unacceptable for him to allow his ego to get in the way like that. To be honest, if he spoke to me like that, I would have no hesitation in putting in a formal complaint. The practice manager won't find out that he is being like this with patients unless someone tells him/her, and in actual fact, the other things that you mention such as you being expected to dispose of the urine sample and him not disposing of the PH stick in the proper disposal bin are clear breaches of standard practice which should be reported. Bear in mind that even though doctors like this would like us to think otherwise, a doctor is not some sort of authority figure who has rights over your body - a doctor is someone who is equal to you but who happens to be trained to do a different job, that's all - and has no more rights over your body than your next door neighbour! He/She has no more right than anyone else does to dismiss your fears as unimportant or belittle your anxieties. Their salaries are also paid by us, and it can be worth bringing that to mind when you're not being treated fairly, as it can give you a bit of a push mentally to stand up for yourself.
As far as the technical stuff goes - of course you can feel your cervix!! I don't know which school of medicine he trained at but he's clearly never fitted a coil if he thinks you can't feel your cervix!! I actually think you've done really well to go back - lots of people wouldn't have had the courage to do that - and if you can feel bumps on your cervix then obviously there are bumps on your cervix. Exactly WHY there are bumps on your cervix is another matter, but there is no question whatsoever that you are correct in getting it investigated. You're doing really well - it's so important to look after yourself in the way that you're doing.
I don't know if you've had your smear appointment yet but if not, how about taking a friend with you for moral support and to hold your hand? Obviously it would need to be someone you trust enough to be able to talk openly with the nurse in their presence, but you're not unusual in getting nervous and anxious about this kind of procedure and you certainly wouldn't be the first person to take someone in with you. Also, I would fully inform the nurse about all of your symptoms and about the bumps that you can feel and ask her to do the smear but to take extra swabs as well. The overwhelming likelihood is that you have NOT got cancer, but that doesn't mean whatever is causing it shouldn't be sorted out!
I really do understand how hard it is when you're in there - I promise you I do - and how easily the first sniff of someone behaving in an unhelpful way can send you straight into that place of feeling like a vulnerable little girl who has no rights, and that's a horrible feeling when it's something like this, so it might help to try and keep at the front of your mind that you are a 26 year old woman who is in charge of her own body and you have a right to appropriate and respectful medical attention when there is something wrong. You are not being silly and you have a right to appropriate treatment.
Do let us know how you get on.
Love, Annabel. x