Good evening marvellous ladies!
Just like everyone else, I’m here because I have something on my mind that I wish I didn’t.
Two weeks ago, I attended my first ever smear test (I’m only 24 and a half, and received my invitation early). A week later, my doctor called and said my results were abnormal, and that I need to attend a colposcopy. I went to see her today (she’s wonderful, and wanted to have chat before the colposcopy), and she told my that my abnormalities are CIN3, and I have severe dyskaryosis. She told me that the most likely reason is HPV. I was very late on the sex bandwagon, and didn’t have sex for the first time until I was 24, and because we didn’t use condom as a form of contraception, perhaps this was the cause. Okay, I’m rambling… ( I did have the HPV jab when I was younger, but I am aware this doesn’t prevent all forms of HPV)
I received my letter for a colposcopy today (I live in London and my GP is fantastic here), which is a week today. This is all happening so quickly, I’m not sure if this is the norm, or if something is seriously wrong. I’m overthinking it and going mad. My doctor reassured me that cancer is highly unlikely and takes years to develop.
I’m not entirely sure what I am trying to say - I’m just finding it difficult to focus at work, and have started overthinking everything e.g. I’ve been on the pill for 6 months, perhaps that played a role. I am going a little bit mad.
I guess I am just looking for some reassuring words. I’m usually okay with pain, but even the smear test hurt me. I don’t know how I feel. Naturally, I am fearing the worst. Any comforting words (or realistic advice!) will be greatly appreciated. Thank you ladies.