I just needed to thank all the ladies that contribute to this forum - as I couldnt have coped without you.
In a nutshell:
I decided this year upon receiving an invite again for a smear that I was going to go - for my first ever smear at 43 years old. Yes, you read right 43. Im currently in a relationship and have no children (by choice). What an idiot ive been.
Had the smear and then received the dreaded letter advising severe dyskarosis on a Friday. Well, i cried and googled. Bad mistake. I stumbled across this site and i thinki read through every single posting. It was a tough, tough weekend and I chose not tell anybody - apart from my Manager at work.
I called the hospital first thing on Monday morning and managed to get a cancellation for the very next day. Thank God - as i was a complete emotional wreckand couldnt eat or sleep.
I had the colposcopy and the LLETZ treatment the same day (yes, it was painful and they couldnt get the bleeding to stop at one point) and I came home feeling very, very sorry for myself. The bleeding, the discharge, the smelly discharge and the horrible thrbbing pain. I had so much bloody-brown dis-charge that I was filling a few pads a day, but it eventually after about 3 weeks it all stopped.
Then came the wait. A very anxious wait. I jumped each time my phone rang and checked the post with trembling hands...expecting the worst.
Then eventually my letter came - confirmed CIN3!!! A follow up smear in April 2014. I had to read the letter a few times as i was expecting worse, a lot worse.
I still havent told anybody - not even my partner, my mum or sisters as i dont them to worry.
So please all you beautiful ladies out there, please dont worry waiting for results (its easier said than done) Please think positive - if I can come away with CIN3 at 43 years old on my first ever smear, Im sure you'll come out with positive results too.
Any private questions - please feel free to send me a private message.