I wrote on here a few weeks ago and it really helped put my mind at ease so trying this again. I had my first smear on the 20th November (I’m 24 and a half) and it came back as high grade dyskaryosis. I went for my colposcopy on the 9th December and I am yet to hear anything back. The doctor and nurses were very unhelpful during this appointment and I have no idea what they think they saw or why no treatment was done there and then.
The worst thing is that since this time I am finding it very hard to act normally. For example after the biopsies I was told whilst I was still bleeding following the procedure for a few days I was unable to have sex. 4 weeks on and I still just can’t do it. My boyfriend initiated sex the other day and I just burst into tears. I’m really struggling and I just don’t know why.
I am hoping now that as it has been 4 weeks without hearing anything that this has not developed into cancer but I still can’t get this worry out of my head. I think I feel more apprehensive as I am quite sure I will need the Lletz treatment which is likely to make me feel the exact same way as after the biopsies.
Has anybody else felt like this following the colposcopy? I just wish I had it in me to think past all this and try and enjoy myself instead of constantly thinking of the results.