I've not posted on here before but I'm hoping someone can tell me what I'm going through is normal. In truth I'm completely beating myself up about the whole thing.
I had my first smear a few weeks ago, and received the terrible news I have CIN3. Went for the Colposcopy and LLETZ treatment (which was horrific as they couldn't cut deep enough and I was in agony as I don't think my local anaesthetic worked). I've been told it will take 4 weeks for the results.
Ever since then, I have encountered an infection, constant pain where my cervix is and also shooting pains in my ovary on one side. Couple this with my period was due the day of the colposcopy and still hasn't arrived and I'm also worrying about the reason behind this. I'm an absolute mess, I'm angry and constantly finding myself thinking about the procedure and I am extremely anxious about the results. I am never usually like this at all- I am normally fit and well, and normally quite a strong person but at the moment I am really not coping well at all- physically or emotionally.
I was supposed to return to work today, but I can't face it. And when I say I can't face it, the thought of going in and dealing with the stresses of my job on top of this is panicking me. I am still taking high dose of antibiotics and painkillers, but the guilt I feel over not returning to work today is so overwhelming.
I just wanted to share my feelings- has anyone else felt like this?