I finished my treatment in january and started taking hrt 2 months ago. It really has made a difference to the hot flushes and I had started to feel more like myself again and had even started applying for jobs (I was self employed and going back to long hours is draining just thinking about).
Over the last few weeks the diarrhea has returned and fatigue has kicked in again. Despite a few wobbly moments I have dealt with everything fairly positively but I am finding that I am getting increasingly sad about going through the menopause at 32 (and before my mum). I am really fortunate that my broodiness kicked in when it did as I have two beautiful daughters who were just 2 and 10 months old when I was diagnosed at stage 1b2. I had always hoped for 3 children so I think I may be grieving and that's where the feeling of sadness is coming from. Being the age I am there are lots of friends and family who are either pregnant or having babies. The youngest is still only 22 months now but I feel like I have been robbed of her babyness as for months I was too unwell to take care of her by myself.
I am so grateful that the treatment was successful but I think that the reality of what has happened has finally caught up with me. I find myself getting really cross with people and just how insensitive they can be (or more likely how sensitive I am :)
How have you other menopausal ladies coped? Has anyone else felt the same? My husband has been amazing throughout as have my family, but they can sometimes be unsympathetic as to them I am better now that I have had the all clear!
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