Im hoping there's someone who's had a similar experience to me and can give a little guidance as to why I feel so low?
At 25, this was only first smear and I was already worried there'd be problems as my family history is worrying. Both my mother and grandmother have had cervical cancer and my mother was diagnosed at just 30. On receiving the news of an abnormal smear I instantly thought the worst. I went with my partner and my mother for the follow up appointment but did not expect to be told they would need to proceed there and then.
After having LLETZ for CIN3 on November 18 2013, I was physically in a little pain for a few days having found the procedure uncomfortable and not very dignified but not severely emotional.
About a week later I began to feel irritated and put it down to anxiety of awaiting the biopsy result.
Once the result arrived all clear I assumed I'd just ride out the 4-6 week healing process and get back to my normal self.
Approaching the 4 week stage now and I feel like I've been hit by a bus!
Emotionally I'm like a roller coaster. My partner of six years is extremely supportive but I feel I'm driving him crazy with my constant mood swings and uncontrollable burst of tears. I don't think it helps that I'm three days into my first period since the operation and I'm bleeding so heavy which is not normal for me at all. Although I've actually lost weight and I'm normally a confident person, I've never felt so unsexy, wearing these horrible pads and feeling bloated all the time.
Trying to fight off feeling low, I've been working ridiculous amounts of hours to keep my mind occupied but feel I might have drained myself instead of confronting what my real fears are? Honestly, I just don't know if how I'm feeling is normal after this procedure?