I finished my treatment 10 days ago. Initially I felt great, on top of the world even. Although I still feel fab physically, emotionally I'm a mess.
I guess I'm just having to come to terms with the fact that our dreams of a family will never happen. I'd been able to push this to the back of my mind during treatment, but now I'm home alone with far too much time to think. Everywhere I go there seems to be swarms of pregnant women or adverts on tv telling me all about great things for babies. People I know keep moaning to me about their sleepless nights and uncomfortable pregnancies etc. I just want to shout from the rooftops that I don't give a f#@k. Of course I don't I just grin and bear it but it really gets to me.
I can deal with the other side effects of all this but being infertile just makes me so angry. It just feels so unfair, as if having cancer isn't enough.
Sorry for my woe is me post but I'm really struggling with this right now.