In 2000 I went in to have the leap procedure, in 2009 had my first child, 2013 had a set of boy twins, in 2016 was blessed with another daughters, 2017 in February had update papsmear after post baby, July went back to doctors over birth control that's when I was told my February pap smear came back abnormal positive HPV the doctor was upset because I was supposed to be notified with certifindividual letter in March. She immediately told me that I need to get in that day or next for a coloscpy. I left the office and never returned. She scared me by her intense need to get me in rite away..
I know that I sound crazy by not going back in or getting her orders but I'm afraid and I am a single mother I lost my children's dad in November 2016. I don't have anyone to watch my 4 young kids while I get more tested and with knowing my risk is high I'm scared. Please help with advice or direction. I've got to live for my kids.