Please forgive me if it's wrong for me to post, as I'm aware that only having treatment for CIN I'm fortunate it hasn't been worse. I wasn't sure where to go for help (and if there even is any help for this sort of thing.)
I've had persistent CIN since 2009, without a clear smear, and 3 months ago had my second treatment - laser and LLETZ to treat several areas. I'm single and have been since shortly after this nightmare started. I'd love to have someone special in my life, but I can't face the idea of sex with a new partner. The consultant said that even I picked up more HPV it probably wouldn't make things any worse, as it seems the HPV virus could be buried deep in my cerivx and I can't seem to clear it. I know I am high risk long term of CC according to my doctor (I did ask, I wantd to know). But I stil can't face the idea of sex, I just have no interest it in, and yet I'm unlikely to find a man who'd accept that. But it's sex that has done this to me and I've just lost interest. I also feel weird inside after the last treatment, I don't really know how to describe it, like there's a big gap if that doesn't sound bizarre.
Life just feels like nightmare :(
Thanks for reading.