I'm new here, i've been struggling to cope with this all on my own and thought i might be able to get some comfort from people who have been through what i've been through over the last year.
I was called for my first smear test about a year a go when i was still 24 (Thank heavens then called me in earlier than the usual UK age of 25). I thought everything would be fine and didn't think much of it, until i received my results a week later.. abnomal smear and positive HPV. I was terrified and ashamed. My boyfriend was supportive and said that girls he had dated in the past had had abnormal tests every year and had biopsies but they'd all been fine, which made me feel (somewhat) better. I then went for my biopsy, which was CIN11, and very traumatic. I then went for my loop procedure following this.
6 months later i had my follow up smear which came back as normal, but showed that my HPV was still at large. They said i wouldn't need another smear for 3 years.. is this right?? This seems like a long time to go without one after this ordeal especially considering i still have an active HPV infection.
Before this all happened i was a hypochondriac with anxiety problems. I am still this, but with the added fear that this is inevitably going to come backat some point.
I had somewhat put this to the back of my mind (scar tissue has made sex painful ever since the loop procedure) until my boyfriend came home last night saying he has found a lump in his neck and has had a sore throat and he is worried. I googled it and BAM, HPV related throat cancer came up.
I then went on a google frezy and terrified myself about the future and what may happen over the next 3 years, and whether i will be able to have children one day.. and what if this HPV has now affected my boyfriends health? There's no way of knowing who had it first, it's irrelevant really, but not a nice thought. He didnt mention if the girl he was with previously had HPV, only that she had abnormal smears every year and had a lot of biopsies.
- Does anyonehave any advice on coping with the emotional side of this? I feel very scared and alone even a year later.
- Is it normal to not have a smear for 3 years even with an active infection? I am considering private smears in the meantime.
- Will i be able to have children even if i have to have another loop procedure? I am not ready for children yet, but i am scared that if i wait too long i may have another operation which could result in me not being able to have any.
- Has anyone else had issues with sex post-loop procedure? I feel it will never be how it was before, and i feel like i'm letting my partner down even though he would never complain and would always be supportive. We still have sex, but it becomes painful for me and certain positions and a no-go anymore. I feel less of a woman now.