It has been a long while since I have posted on the forum as I have been trying to hard to get on with my 'new normal' life.
In brief .. I was diagnosed with stage 1b2 cervical cancer in August 2012, exactly one week before my Wedding Day (yes very poor timing indeed). The Wedding went ahead and 2 weeks later I went into hospital for my RH with lymph node dissection, luckily the nodes were all clear. As I recovered from the surgery, so my emotions seemed to get worse, I felt slightly robbed of my wedding day and the shock of having cancer hit home. This forum was absolutely wonderful and I received some very sound advice that helped me move forward... hence me seeking some help this time.
Since then I have thrown myself into life, furthered my career, socialised like never before, lost all my post op weight and basically kept myself very busy indeed...whilst all my close friends carried on having babies... then 4-5 weeks ago things started to come crumbling down. At first I put it down to those nasty hormones.. as I was a bit weepy, irritable etc then when I went for my last 4 month check up things took a turn for the worst although it was all clear I went home and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and thats pretty much what I have been doing since, either been snappy and irriitable or sobbing. I have also been getting incredible headaches and generally feeling unwell. I reluctantly took myself off to my GP who although is doing blood tests basically told me that I have been super human for 2 years and now its time to be human and that he believes I am grieving for not being able to have any children (i must add I have two beautiful teenage girls.. having had my children very young). I'm off work at the moment as I cannot seem to get the motivation to get off the sofa and get dressed which is not like me, I have always taken pride in myself in being able to pick myself up and get on with it... but I dont seem to be able to this time
I would be so grateful so to hear from any of you wonderful ladies? As i dont want to spiral down any further! Either with some advice or if you have experienced anything similar?