I felt like I just needed to vent a little bit so I hope no one minds!
I had my colposcopy and Lletz yesterday. It all went as well as it could apparently, and I’ve actually been feeling really positive today. But now I’m in bed and alone with my thoughts I feel terrified
I was treated for severe dyskaryosis and glandular abnormalities. She said she could clearly see the area and has removed it all.
I just can’t help thinking that the result is going to come back so much worse and I’m over analysing everything. I have read lots of forums on here and so many women who are going through much tougher times than me absolutely amaze me. Full of positivity and hope. Then here’s me in a right old state when I don’t even know what’s going on yet. I can’t help feel a bit selfish
I’ve had a good cry to myself and I do feel a bit better. I’m just sick of people telling me it will be alright and nothing to worry about. I found the whole thing emotionally draining which I’m sure is normal.
The 4 week wait for results is going to be hard as I’m sure it is for everyone.
I don’t know what else to say but felt as though I needed to get my rant out of my system as I feel like I have no one to talk to
I’m really trying to keep smiling and positive but when I’m alone it’s difficult.
Thank you for reading and sorry again!
Lots of love xx