Pretty sure I have cancer now. I made an appt for the 23rd of this month but I'm so paranoid bc I had oral as well as anal sex and think of the cells spreading their too.
I get thoughts of suicide bc I don't want to die by cancer. I want to have some control over my life... I want to die on my own terms.
If anyones been in my head space how did you stay alive? My diagnoses won't get better the cancer is just going to spread. I have hpv 16 and 18. These cant be cleared.