I have no idea how I'm feeling. My brain is scrambled since I found out August 1 (2 days after my 30th bday). I'm waiting for a call from another doctor now. I'm guessing to get scans and what not then discuss treatment.
I have a 1 and 2 year old! I bled for 10 weeks after my youngest was born then started bleeding after sex sometimes. Since January I started bleeding after sex everytime and it was starting to hurt.
After the birth of my 1st son I had an irregular pap, was supposed to get another one 6 months later but got pregnant a couple months later. I got another pap and it was fine.
After my second son was born I had a pap 10 weeks after and it came back abnormal. Had another one and again, abnormal, was sent for a biopsy and the doctor asked if I bled other than my period and I said yes. So he rushed my results and 3 weeks later, I have cancer.
I am just so tired. Since January when I started bleeding after sex, I started binging on food (lost 30 pounds healthy before hand) and I'm constantly hungry, my head is always fuzzy. (The fuzziness could be from depression) My lower back is ALWAYS aching, constant dull cramping (like 24/7) and the last couple months, my thighs are always aching too. And the last couple weeks (before I was diagnosed) i cant sit for too long bc my tailbone starts to hurt a lot! And I trouble standing up. And I'm so freaking tired. No matter how much I sleep I get or don't get, I'm exhausted. Now I know it's my body battling cancer.
My husband is there for me, but he hates when I talk about the bad stuff but I cant help it! He seems to be keeping himself extra busy. Hes stressed out.
The last few months I have been pushing myself to keep going but have little motivation ams energy but since I found out I have ZERO motivation and energy and just want to rest. I take care of my kids (stay at home mom) do a couple chores and just want to sit around. I dont even remember having energy. I have no idea how I restricted food before. My husband keeps telling me it's all in my mind. Hes stressed too (runs a business) and he just pushes through. Doesnt let negative thoughts get him down. That really annoys me! He's mentally tired...I've been that kind of tired before too, but it goes away! This fatigue hasn't for months!!! I just wanna cry. I deal with depression on top of this.
I just feel lost.
Thanks for letting me vent. Feels good.
Update- so I'm going for a ct scan Thursday afternoon. The cancer clinic called too for an appointment Wednesday at 9am. I live 2 hours away. Ugh cancer sucks. I did call the cancer clinic back to let them know about the ct scan and they are letting me know if they can reschedule the appointment. I'm hoping for Monday then I'll find out what stage. Either way, I'm pretty sure next week I'll know the stage and treatment.
The wait is ALMOST over!!!!!